So, it happened. I turned 35 last Saturday.
Five years ago, when I turned 30, I freaked. Well, I am a firm believer that everyone has the poetic license to freak out whenever they reach a milestone.
Back then, my husband, who was my boyfriend at the time, asked me “where do you see yourself in 5 years?” .
The childless, single, living-in-Brazil, 30-year-old me replied specifically:
When I am 35 I wanna have 3 children and I wanna be living in a place that’s not New York but would allow me to go there WITHOUT getting on an airplane on a long weekend or whenever I feel like it.
He took a deep breath and said “well, that’s quite hard”.
I just kinda…
Dude… you asked me what I would wish for, if I could wish for anything in the world. I was not being realistic.
Except, it turns out I was.
So, here I am, the 35 year old me. I am short one kid (by choice) and I must say, despite all the fake-confidence I had when I said those words to my husband, I too am very surprised that in 5 years I got myself where I wanted to be.
But apparently, I do have the secret power to attract the things I say and I feel like that’s a power I should use.
So, I’m gonna make a wish for when I’m 40.
When I’m 40… I wanna be really happy. Just like I am now, except, without the panic disorder, which will allow me to actually ENJOY it. I also want my girls to still be my best friends and still hug me. I want us all to be healthy. I wanna be in love with my city and if it’s not too much to ask… I kinda wanna be working with something fun and maybe be living in my own house?
Here I go again, people… shooting for the stars. And once again, I know I’ll surprise myself.